Release!

I dont really know what im gonna be writing about yet , Ive been so used with microblogging as you know twitter has been really really popular recently and i enjoy sending random tweets at certain points. But sometimes there are things that you want to really vent out . I havent really thought of maintaining a blog before cause it takes too much time to maintain and and a lot of effort. But lately ive been wondering what is it in blogging that people like so much . That i have to find out . Some say its a way of expressing yourself, some use it for business, some use it to share their experiences and some say its therapeutic. I dont really know what my reaosn is going to be but i guess a little bit of each will come along the way .

One time i was so frustrated cause for some reason that im still unable to identify theres a certain frustration that has been going on for some time now, Yet the problem is i dont know what it is and what to do to relieve it. At one point i attributed it to what i do , I mean besides being a dancer which i know gives me that stress relief every time i perform. Im also a soon to be doctor in a couple of months and this past year ive been aorund the hospital alot . Everyday we would do routine tasks of monitoring patients vital signs , checking if their stable making sure medications and orders have been carried out (being part of my training i had to do it ) . I hated the job cause it was so stressful and repetetive and not to mention you get sleep deprived. Unlike other stresses this was different cause usually you only get tired physically at work, as a medical intern its so much different cause you get drained both physically and mentally .

For over a year i did the repetetive task daily every other day going on 36 hour duties going home drained falling asleep and then waking up the next day realizing i have to repeat the whole thing over . It was turning into a routine that consumed so much of my time that i barely had time to call my folks, if im not studying id be taking the down time to sleep. I lost my spontaneity, fell a little more distant from the world that i know , the stage, performing . I really missed performing and my friends ,going out at weekends, those are some of the things that i had to sacrifice for the internship.

Along the way i find myself stuck in the middle doing things so redundant and being stuck where im at, Its like walking in a treadmill you keep on walking/running but you never go anywhere youre just stuck. A year after i finished junior internship and graduated from med school. Now im in the new task of being a Junior of the hospital Staff (Post graduate Internship) or what i like to call my Junior Residency training . During this time i got to clear my head a little bit and i realized how much i missed out on the past year. Now im trying to catch up with old friends with; things that i used to love doing . Theres so much i wanna do that i never had the chance to do a year before and one of it was making this blog . I guess maybe ill use this to see how much progress ill make in the coming days , months and years . I really wanna make something out of myself not just as a doctor but someone who can influence people. Someone who people would look up to for inspiration, how im gonna do that ? i guess thats what have to figure out .